梦见～

一年又一年的时间过去了。。。
虽然两年的时间说长不长。。说久不久。。。
不过我已经开始我的新生活了。。。
虽然我不曾忘记过你。。。
但。。。。你依然还是会出现在我的梦里面。。。

我很享受梦里出现的你。。那种感觉很甜蜜。。很开心。。。。
我希望梦里面的你和现实中的你也是一样。。开开心心。。不要老是孤孤单单。。。
梦里面的情景可以实现的吗？
我也不敢渴望。。。。

只希望你永远不会忘记我。。。那。。对我来说已经足够了。。
记得上次看见你的时候。。还问我近况如何。。。
看见你的笑容。。我也觉得很开心。。。
每当圣诞节来临的时候我都会想起你。。。
还记得我最喜欢怎样的圣诞节吗？
嘻嘻。。。。

so fast......

One weeks ago~~~
so fast...
next week wanna start college already...
times go so fast~~~

wanna one year already....
i still thinking XXX....

i got half month dinn't see him already...
dunno he still ok are not...
this half month i think so poperly already.....

Pls....
don't treat me like that...ok?
i will control myself...

everyday i also will wish...
i wish......i wish again.....
bless...bless.......

hope can see you soon...
thanks....god...

i hope~~~~~~~~~

Walk~~~~and walk~~~

This three days i also work at there...
when i walking around there...
i really hope i got chance to see him...

haizz....
all this is only i hope...

i working until my leg so pain alreaddy...
but...don't why?when i rest time...i din't go eat and sit...
just walk around and around at there...

i din't walk in his' s shop...i just walk near around there...
hope he will go out...and can see him...
but finally...is no....==

i told myself already...
don't think of him...
but this few day i just walk around at over there...
alone walk and walk.....
even my leg is so pain and very tired...

i also no feeling...just walking~~
waiting him appear...

when i walking go rest....
i remember back....the memories you and me~~
i remember before we rest together...
walking at there....
even we how tired....we also feel so happy and enjoy...
on that time....i 'll wake up early in the morning...
prepair the lunch for our break time to eat...

you feel so happy...when rest time...
because can eat with me...and also can eat my cook lunch...

today i just alone at there...
don't have you accompany me walking at there...
don't have you accompany me having lunch at there...

still got two months...
is we already break up one year...
so rush...times is go on.......
non stop....

and my love also is non stop....
all the memories also in my heart...
i will cant forget it....
hope you too....

to you~~~

Until now.....i still haven't back the thiongs to him..
Why???
i still want to waiting what??
all also cant get back already....times is go on....
cant turn back any where....

All also is impossible.....

i know is impossible....
but why i still want to waiting...??

i waiting for what??

this few i working~~working~~
until my brain don't think about him,
but when i one person...i will thinking of him...

but i not sad...i dinn't cry...
i only thinking what he doing...

and thinking back our memories only...

then i feel so happy.....
my mood will be ok....^^

one things is make me so scared is.....
i scared you will forget me and......u got other...
this thing is make me so scared want.......
"God!wish me and wish him will everyday happy, and one day he will know me...will be friend with me...will forgive me...
before you do all the bad thing to me...i also will forgive you...
why you cant forgive me??
if you don' t give people a chance...how you can let people give you a chance......

you don't know how i sadness....
please~~~forgive me~~~
thats all only...then enough....^^thanks god~~"

i thinking~~~

don't know why today feel not feeling well...
keep on sleep....
i wake up..wht i also don't have think...
but when i sleeping..i got dreaming of him...

im not sure what i doing in the dream with him..
i only remember he beside onme...accompany me..

when i wake up...
that feel still at here...
my heart feel so sweet...

but this is dream...
i must wake up....

i feel not feeling before...i will tell you im not feeling well...
then youmust call me or message me...
ask me what happen to me...

now..
i just looking my hp...
cant do anything....
cant tell you..cant call you..cant message you...

i just looking my hp....
looking until i fall asleep...

i very hope one day when i looking myhp...
Is YOU.....call me or messaege me...

"how are you?....
you happy are not?
you got thinking of me?
you angry me?
you still ok are not?
feel so tired?"

this all i also cant ask him..
WHY?WHY?
Why will become like this??

i hate myself...
i regret....
you say why i cant do everything for you..
just only you do everything for me..change for me..

you know??
i got do everthing for you..also got change for you..
is you don't know all this...

please don't want ignore me...ok?
be friend to me..ok?

i pray again...i pray...
everyday i also pray....

i pray.....

Wake up in the morning feel so tired....
don't have work today.....feel so bored...
i got go out today....when i one person walking at there...
i memories back...our first time dating is at there..time square...
i still remember....
you first time hold my hand...then we walking at there...
we chat..we smile...we happy...

when thinking back...on that time i feel so happy...
but i looking myself....now...is only one person walking here.....
feel so lonely.....and feel so sad...

All also is memory you and me...........
if now you still beside on me....i will feel so happy wan...
and feel so hapiness....

this few day...everynight before i sleep...
"i will pray....pray god will give me one more chance...
pray you will give me one more chance...
pray you will not angry me...will still be fren with me...
pray one day you will know me....."

everyday i also will pray...
will say goodnight to you...but just say inside my heart...
hope you can feel it...
you happy i also will happy...
you fine also will be ok.....

this is my pray.....

times??can turn back??

today still same work at klcc...
take two tren to go there.....
when i walking to go there work...
i will thinking back before...
when i start working i will message him...and say after finish work will go there and meet him...
he also will say becareful...and gambateh wan..

NoW!!!
one message also don't have...

yesterday night when i want to sleep on that time..
suddenly...i got hope....i hope tomorrow when i wake up..
open my eyes....is turn back to 2008.12.11....

because is on that day we seprate wan.....
if turn back on that day i will say sorry to you...
and also wiil call back you....

don't want you go away from me....
now is too late....but if got a chance i wish...
i really want turn back to that day...

then i think we will happy together...
and until now maybe we still together....

but all also is i dreaming only...
when today i open my eyes...all aslo is continue...
still want to go work...still want to miss him...

i just think only...where cant turn back wan...
i know is cant wan...
is i think too much...haiz..

i will miss you...but i will not disturd you...
you always on my heart...but i will happy...

this is i promise myself wan..
if i really get stress i only cry....

but if i really miss you..can i cry??

now i still thinking when i only give back you the things...
maybe next week...i will call you...
but i don't know you will received my call are not...
i will try to give back you...

continue tomorrow~~~