30.9.2009

30.9.2009...
this day i got saw him...
and i also got sit in he's car...
on that time..i thinking...today maybe is a last time i sit in he's car...
and maybe is a last day he talking wif me...
but i will hope still got chance can talk with him and he fetch me...
but i know..now he not my who...also is not bf...

i cant control him will stay beside on me...
i know now...i want to accept all the things is infront of me...
im so miss...so love...
but i cant to anything....
i need to learn how to give up you...and forget you...
don't thinking of you....
you said we cannot be friend anymore...
you know when i hear it you said like that...
i really feel my heart want to broken...
but nevermind...you also said like that...

what can i do...
i only can say i regret...why i treat you so good..
you can treat me like that..
i thought i treat you so good...
i will get hapiness wan...
all also is fake wan...

why you can gbecome like that...
change like other people...
i know...the question will inside my heart forever...
i know i will dunno answer...forever..
even next year....10 years ago...or 20 years ago...
i also know....the question only inside my heart forever...

FROM NOW......
i want to tell myself don't thinking of you already...
is no rewards wan...
how i expend all the things with you...
i also no rewards....no respond....

ok....
i thinking so long...how can i really forget you?
then i think i keep it all you give the present and picture...
all the thing about you and me...
i will keep it...and also i want to give back you....
then i only can forget you at all....
don't want like last time still thinking of you....
i know on this time i will so suffer and so miss you...
will memories me and you....
me and you got a lot memories....
when want to go where also got our memories....
i only can feel my heart so pain.........
i tell myself...this time is my last time to write like this...
don't think already.......

goodbye all the memories...
goodbye my baby.....take care...

you always in my heart......i will alone forever~~~